A dead lonely end. I quote mr j ho "the a levels is a lonely journey." It is true. Nobody doing the mugging but me. Nobody doing the paper with me. And in the end, nobody is going to take responsibility of the outcome.
I have succumbed to the imminent numbness that this journey has to offer. Numbness. "Nothing matters more. But why dont they?" And i have no answer.
The only things i do now are routine: wake up, shower, eat, study, eat, study, eat, shower, study, sleep. And it repeats itself like an oldies on loop.
My eyes are wearing out and my body is weakening. Ive been getting random cuts and bruises. And mind you, i hate hurting myself. Because, well, it hurts.
I dont sleep well anymore. And same with the time im not sleeping. I dont excercisemyconsciousness well anymore. Its like im losing my mind.
That is just it. Im losing my mind.
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