And i realised what my life really was.
a big fat lie.
I kept thinking about it and gradually lost my appetite for lunch. I mean, I'm a cold person who's been so tormented ever since Primary one. Year after year, I get bullied and misused. Perhaps explaining the coldness and bitterness of my persona. And yet i still try to be optimistic. Damn fake.
I've been thinking about my future
I realised that my future is nothing but a pretentious lie my mother wants it to be.
Law.
Like that's gonna be fun.
As usual, I had nobody to turn to. But of course the one who's always there was.
I poured lots of ribena concentrate and ice cream soda into a cup. It was good, and i felt a little pain go away.
Exactly.
I am an addict, and i finally realised why. Which just proves my life to be a game of pretend.
I just thought of an extract of a song that kinda says what i feel.
I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
-PCD
Oh well, no use lamenting over trash. Just have to get used to it. For now.
Hopefully afterlife is better.
